Yo, peep the style and the kids checking for it
The number one question is how could you ignore it
And drop right back in the cut over basement tracks
Rap stack got you back in the sub black
Rewind that we just rolling with the rhythm
Rise from the ashes of stylist division
With these non-stop lyrics of life living
Not to be forgotten but still unforgiving
But in the meantime there are those who wanna talk this and that
So I suppose that it gets to a point where feelings gotta get hurt
And get dirty with the people spreading the dirt it goes
[Chorus]
(Tried to give you warning but everyone ignores me)
Told you everything loud and clear
(But nobody's listening)
(Called to you so clearly but you don't want to hear me)
Told you everything loud and clear
(But nobody's listening)
I got a heart full of pain, head full of stress
Head full of anger, held in my chest
And everything left's a waste of time
I hate my rhymes, but hate everyone else's more
I'm riding on the back of this pressure
Guessing that it's better I can't keep myself together
Because all of this stress gave me something to write on
The pain gave me something I could set my sights on
Never forget the blood sweat and tears
The uphill struggle over years the fear and
Trash talking and the people it was to
And the people that started it just like you
[Chorus]
(Tried to give you warning but everyone ignores me)
Told you everything loud and clear
(But nobody's listening)
(Called to you so clearly but you don't want to hear me)
Told you everything loud and clear
(But nobody's listening)
I got a heart full of pain, head full of stress
Head full of anger, held in my chest
Uphill struggle
Blood sweat n tears
Nothing to gain
Everything to fear
Heart full of pain, head full of stress
Head full of anger, held in my chest
Uphill struggle
Blood sweat n tears
Nothing to gain
Everything to fear
Heart full of pain
[Chorus]
(Tried to give you warning but everyone ignores me)
Told you everything loud and clear
(But nobody's listening)
(Called to you so clearly but you don't want to hear me)
Told you everything loud and clear
(But nobody's listening)
I got a heart full of pain, head full of stress
(Nobody's listening)
Head full of anger, held in my chest
(Nobody's listening)
Uphill struggle
Blood sweat n tears
(Nobody's listening)
Nothing to gain
Everything to fear
(Nobody's listening)
I'm tired of being what you want me to be Feeling so faithless Lost under the surface I don't know what you're expecting of me Put under the pressure Of walking in your shoes [caught in the undertow / just caught in the undertow] Every step that i take is another mistake to you
I've Become so numb I can't feel you there Become so tired So much more aware I'm becoming this All i want to do Is be more like me And be less like you
Can't you see that you're smothering me Holding too tightly Afraid to lose control Cause everything that you thought i would be Has fallen apart right in front of you
[caught in the undertow / just caught in the undertow] Every step that i take is another mistake to you [caught in the undertow / just caught in the undertow] And every second i waste is more than i can take
But i know I may end up failing too But i know You were just like me With someone disappointed in you
I don't know who to trust No surprise Everyone feels so far away from me Heavy thoughts sift through dust And the lies Trying not to break But i'm so tired of this deceit Every time i try to make myself Get back up on my feet All i ever think about is this All the tiring time between And how Trying to put my trust in you Just takes so much out of me
I take everything from the inside And throw it all away Cause i swear / for the last time I won't trust myself with you
Tension is building inside Steadily Everyone feels so far away from me Heavy thoughts forcing their way Out of me
I won't trust myself with you I won't waste myself on you Waste myself on you You
Its easier to run Replacing this pain with something numb It's so much easier to go Than face all this pain here all alone Something has been taken From deep inside of me A secret i've kept locked away No one can ever see Wounds so deep they never show They never go away Like moving pictures in my head For years and years they've played
If i could change i would Take back the pain i would Retrace every wrong move that i made i would If i could Stand up and take the blame i would If i could take all the shame to the grave i would
Sometimes i remember The darkness of my past Bringing back these memories I wish i didn't have Sometimes i think of letting go And never looking back And never moving forward so There would never be a past
Just washing it aside All of the helplessness inside Pretending i don't feel so misplaced Is so much simpler than change
It's easier to run Replacing this pain with something numb It's so much easier to go Than face all this pain here all alone
Memories consume Like opening the wound I'm picking me apart again You all assume I'm safe here in my room [unless i try to start again] I don't want to be the one The battles always choose Cause inside i realize That i'm the one confused
I don't know what's worth fighting for Or why i have to scream I don't know why i instigate And say what i don't mean I don't know how i got this way I know it's not alright So i'm Breaking the habit Tonight
Clutching my cure I tightly lock the door I try to catch my breath again I hurt much more Than anytime before I had no options left again
I'll paint it on the walls Cause i'm the one at fault I'll never fight again And this is how it ends
I don't know what's worth fighting for Or why i have to scream But now i have some clarity To show you what i mean I don't know how i got this way I'll never be alright So i'm Breaking the habit Breaking the habit Tonight
I am a little bit of loneliness a little bit of disregard
Handful of complaints but I can't help the fact that everybody can see
these scars
I am what I want you to want what I want you to feel
But it's like no matter what I do, I can't convince you, to just believe
this is real
So I let go, watching you, turn your back like you always do
Face away and pretend that I'm not
But I'll be here cause you want what I've got
[Chorus]
I can't feel the way I did before
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
Time won't heal this damage anymore
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
I am a little bit insecure a little unconfident
Cause you don't understand I do what I can but sometimes I don't make
sense
I say what you never wanna say but I've never had a doubt
It's like no matter what I do I can't convince you for once just to hear
me out
So I let go watching you turn your back like you always do
Face away and pretend that I'm not
But I'll be here cause you're all that I've got
[Chorus]
I can't feel the way I did before
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
Time won't heal this damage anymore
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
Now
Hear me out now
You're gonna listen to me, like it or not
Right now
Hear me out now
You're gonna listen to me, like it or not
Right now
I can't feel the way I did before
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
[Chorus]
I can't feel the way I did before
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
Time won't heal this damage anymore
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
[Chorus]
I can't feel the way I did before
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
Time won't heal this damage anymore
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
I can't feel
I won't be ignored
Time won't heal
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
Nothing ever stops all these thoughts And the pain attached to them Sometimes i wonder why this is happening Its like nothing i can do will distract me when I think of how i shot myself in the back again Cause from the infinite words i could say / i Put all the pain you gave to me on display / but didn't Realize / instead of setting it free / i Took what i hated and made it a part of me [it never goes away]
Hearing your name / the memories come back again I remember when it started happening I'd see you in every thought i had and then The thoughts slowly found words attached to them And i knew as they escaped away i was Committing myself to them / and every day i Regret saying those things / cause now i see / that i Took what i hated and made it a part of me
[it never goes away]
And now You've become a part of me You'll always be right here You've become a part of me You'll always be my fear I can't separate myself from what i've done I've given up a part of me I've let myself become you
Get away from me Gimme my space back / you gotta just go Everything comes down to memories of you I've kept it in but now i'm letting you know I've let you go GET AWAY FROM ME
I've let myself become you I've let myself become lost inside these thoughts of you Giving up a part of me I've let myself become you
There are just too many times that people have tried to look
inside of me
Wondering what I think of you and I protect you out of
courtesy
Too many times that I’ve held on when I needed to push away
Afraid to say what was on my mind afraid to say what I need
to say
Too many things that you've said about me when I’m not
around
You think having the upper hand means you gotta keep putting
me down
But I’ve had too many standoffs with you it’s about as much
as I can stand
So I'm waiting until the upper hand is mine
[Chorus]
(One minute you're on top)
The next you're not watch it drop
(Making your heart stop)
Just before you hit the floor
(One minute you're on top)
Next you're not missed your shot
(Making you're heart stop)
You think you've won
(And then its all gone)
So many people like me put so much trust in all your lies
So concerned with what you think to just say what we feel
inside
So many people like me walk on eggshells all day long
All I know is that all I want is to feel like I’m not
stepped on
There are so many things you say that make me feel you've
crossed the line
What goes up will surely fall and I’m counting down the
time
Cause I’ve had so many standoffs with you it’s about as much
as I can stand
So I'm waiting until the upper hand is mine
[Chorus]
(One minute you're on top)
The next you're not watch it drop
(Making your heart stop)
Just before you hit the floor
(One minute you're on top)
Next you're not missed your shot
(Making you're heart stop)
You think you've won
(And then its all gone)
(And then it’s all gone)
(And then its all gone)
(And then it’s all gone)
(Now it’s all gone)
I know I’ll never trust a single thing you say
You knew your lies would divide us but you lied anyway
And all the lies have got you floating up above us all
But what goes up has got to fall
When i pretend Everything is what i want it to be I look exactly like what you had always wanted to see When i pretend I can forget about the criminal i am Stealing second after second just cause i know i can / but I can't pretend this is the way it will stay / i'm just Trying to bend the truth I can't pretend i'm who you want me to be So i'm Lying my way from you
[no / no turning back now] I wanna be pushed aside So let me go [no / no turning back now] Let me take back my life I'd rather be all alone [no turning back now] Anywhere on my own Cause i can see [no / no turning back now] The very worst part of you Is me
I remember what they taught to me Remember condescending talk of who i ought to be Remember listening to all of that and this again So i pretended up a person who was fitting in And now you think this person really is me and i'm [trying to bend the truth] But the more i push The more i'm pulling away 'cause i'm
Lying my way from you
This isn't what i wanted to be I never thought that what i said Would have you running from me Like this
The very worst part of you The very worst part of you Is me
I had nothing to say And I'd get lost in the nothingness inside of me I was confused And I let it all out to find /that I'm Not the only person with these things in mind Inside of me But all the vacancy the words revealed Is the only real thing that I've got left to feel Nothing to lose Just stuck/hollow and alone And the fault is my own And the fault is my own
I want to heal I want to feel What I thought was never real I want to let go of the pain I've held so long [Erase all the pain 'til it's gone] I want to heal I want to feel Like I'm close to something real I want to find something i've wanted all along Somewhere I belong
And I've got nothing to say I can't believe I didn't fall right down on my face I was confused Looking everywhere/only to find that it's Not the way I had imagined it all in my mind So what am I What do I have but negativity 'Cause I can't justify the Way everyone is looking at me Nothing to lose Nothing to gain/hollow and alone And the fault is my own The fault is my own
I will never know Myself until I do this on my own And I will never feel Anything else until my wounds are healed I will never be Anything 'til I break away from me And I will break away I'll find myself today
I want to heal I want to feel like I'm Somewhere i belong
Sometimes i Need to remember just to breathe Sometimes i Need you to stay away from me Sometimes i'm In disbelief i didn't know Somehow i Need you to go
Sometimes i Feel like i trusted you too well Sometimes i Just feel like screaming at myself Sometimes i'm In disbelief i didn't know Somehow i Need to be alone
Don't stay Forget our memories Forget our possibilities What you were changing me into [just give me myself back and] Don't stay Forget our memories Forget our possibilities Fake all your faithlessness with you [just give me myself back and] Don't stay
I don't need you anymore I don't want to be ignored I don't need one more day Of you wasting me away
